INFJ

Regardless of how many people actually read these posts, I feel that I have to explain why I am the way I am, and why I'm even writing about these things. Although I can admit that I think way too much, I don't want to believe that it's insanity or that I ever need to change the way I see things. 

The Myers-Briggs assessment indicator is a tool I've come to seriously utilize. It's an assessment used to categorize people into personality types to help better one's understanding of themselves and how they approach situations as well as other personalities. My personality type is INFJ: Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging. 

I'm not going to lie - I pretty much just googled this stuff and there is a lot to say about each personality type, so I'm going to just try and keep the descriptions to a bare minimum. 

I have an Introverted Intuition (IN) - From what I gather, this means that my dominant function is to internally process data as I sense it. It's in my nature to piece things that aren't so obvious: ideas, perspectives, theories, stories, symbols, and metaphors...and I would do it in a very private manner. I wield an intuition that can't really be explained, but it's something personal that helps me make decisions. I feel that the downfall to this would be over-analyzing things that are meant to be simple or taken at face-value. This contributes to one of my biggest insecurities. There have been times when people have rejected the few ideas that I've voiced. When my analysis of something is met with little remarks like "...yeah sure, ok...", I feel that my perception is instantly devalued. Almost like I put more meaning into something that isn't meant to be shit...which may be true sometimes. But I feel like there has to be some people in the world who are meant to interpret meanings and I'm pretty content with being one of them.

Feeling-Judging Mode Type - Basically, I make my decisions based on the intuition I mentioned before. People with "FJ" tend to have a good read on others. We are also hypersensitive to the emotions of others which, therefore, makes them naturally considerate. I often find myself making decisions based on other people's feelings. It's sort of selfish and unselfish at the same time: in order for me to find comfort in a situation I am in, I try to create good vibes. I will please and give to other people so that I can be content with the surrounding energy that I've helped establish. And there are many potential problems that can follow this behavior, but I will not even begin trying to share those experiences...

So the reason I even bring this up is because many people tell me I'm "deep" and I like that about myself. But I've also come across people who would rather not delve into these kinds of conversations - which is cool too. I just really hate when people discredit my thoughts without putting an effort into understanding them. So if I request anything of you (the theoretical reader of this blog), it'd be that you honestly and whole-heartedly put forth this effort before you pass these posts off as something unnecessary or invalid.

And in short, I've created this site to be a personal outlet for these internalized ideas that can get too elaborate for me to process. I'm also kind of hoping that I'd be challenged or that people would affirm and even better my understanding of these things. I found that poetry has started becoming something I found conflict with in several ways and these thoughts started to spill over in Facebook statuses - which I don't think is the best way to expose myself, ergo, this blog was born.

INFJ article references: http://www.16personalities.com/infj-personality, https://www.personalitypage.com/INFJ.html, http://www.winerfoundation.org/Myers-Briggs/Profiles--FJ.HTM